Well, for the first time ever, i created a blog. Rasa maju pulak buat benda ni xD. But the point i want to share here is about what is it to be left by someone you really love, you really care and you dont want to lose. Yup, its hard, sangat menyakitkan bila ditinggalkan, lagi lagi oleh orang yang kita sayang. I dont know why but this is the first time i cried alot because of a girl. This is what happened if kita terlalu sayang, terlalu berharap yang seseorang itu akan bersama dengan kita selamanya. Hakikatnya, tiada apa yang kekal didunia ini jika itu bukan ketentuan Allah. Kita hanya mampu merancang, tapi ketentuan Allah adalah yang terbaik. People changes, everything changes in this world, tapi itu tak bermakna kita perlu bersedih selamanya sebaliknya belajar atas apa yang terjadi untuk ubah diri menjadi yang lebih baik. Hidup ni kita tak dapat duga, sebabtu kita kena redha atas segala ketentuan Allah.
This is what happened to me, a years ago there is a cute, pretty and smart girl who has crush on me. After i heard that news, i'm trying to get to know her more, i texted her and that was the beginning. I admire her a lot and everyting was really beautiful at the beginning. And after just 6 months i think, everything is going so wrong. She found someone who is better than me, more hurtful is he is my friend. They keep it secret from me, everyone keep it secret from me but i'm not a fool. I know whats going on in my surrounding. The most hurtful thing happened in my life. We dont ask for it but this is what is meant to be. and we need to accept it even how bad it hurts. sometimes, actually many times i felt loss about myself, I dont know the purpose why am i alive, I just think like the world is going to be better if i'm not alive. But everything happened for a reason. And i'll always keep looking for it until i found what is love means. Honestly I don't know how a person can have a breakup relationship, then got a new one, breakup again and do it over and over. For me, love is not just to enjoy, love is what we should have until we die,
Now i got it. apa yang kita nak, tak semestinya baik untuk kita and apa yang kita tak rancang, itulah yang terbaik untuk kita. we dont have the right to keep things happen going on with what have been planned. Apa yang kita boleh buat ialah doa semoga apa yang berlaku ini dapat membantu kita untuk menjalankan kehidupan yang lebih bahagia dan bermakna pada masa hadapan. InshaaAllah.
